just finished my forth shower. isit just me or is the weather been freaking for the past few days? haven a terrible migraine also. the whole half of my head feels like as if its been clamped. had back-to-back sleepovers at azar's house for the past few days. keeps me awake with his balding sense of humor.heheh. his situations kinda similar as mine in some way, but he trys to improvise it somehow. most importantly, his ties with his family is very close.... job searching day again tmw. looking forward to the weekends. gon sk8 wit zaki. missin her baddd..
azar during his soft porn days.
"forgive...forget...relive...regret..."
xMunicipally Wastedx
Monday, April 25
12:15 AM
i came upon this album by this old school black metal band, mayhem, while surfing the net. i'm don dig this genre much but the album cover fascinates me...
the cover is actually a picture of dead Dead the vocalist(yes his name is Dead and shit... it wasn't meant to be such a pun...) with his brains splattered and arms cut... Well, I think there's no sense in describing the cover - you'd better look at it yourselves (see the picture). he committed suicide by shooting himself with a shotgun and the picture was quickly taken by the lead guitarist of the band b4 the police arrived.
p.s: i purposely didn resize the picture. for u peeps viewing pleasure. enjoy!
xMunicipally Wastedx
Sunday, April 24
9:18 AM
forced to wake up early again by this person who talks on the phone like some screaming tarzanette. wtf. sheesh. spent a day at vladdy's house ytd wit the crew. met lenn and herf at potong pasir mrt station. they were grumbling and stuff cos vladdy was running late. waited wit them for awhile, then i was startled by some car horn. well,well,well, it seems tat vladdy the suzairie was driving this 6 seater car wit amok. so tats y he was late. the chicks board the car first while i waited for boy beijing the spastic to lai2. the first ting he said when we meet was tat he saw kak ct(a.k.a ghost)the niteb4.aha long story. but call me stupid but i believe him. when we finally reached vladdy's house, lenn and herf was in the kitchen(lenn was cooking). i volunteered to help them. after awhile, i passed the job to the host who was lazing ard then went to play winning eleven wit boy beijing. time passed by and the food was ready. to lenny: ur cookin was not bad.....for a beginner! hahahaha! nola, it was good. hen hao chi! azar continued to play winning eleven wit vladdy's bro, i tried out his electric guitar and the rest was at the living room. lenn was watching tv wit amok and vladdy and herf was napping on the same pillow..oww.so shweet!*winks winks* nyahahahahahaha! later in the nite we had a short road trip in the 6 seater then ended the nite chillin at somerset(amok and i tried to ollie over a seat and in the end we kena halau by security guard).
"I rise from ruin, this is all I have, this is mine"
xMunicipally Wastedx
Friday, April 22
10:37 AM
haven been updating tis shit for quite sum time now. first of all i would like to get sumth off my chest. hu in the blue shit do u tink u are searchin thru my private stuff?! so wat if ure my stepmum?! even my own flesh and blood don go jollyin away invading my privacy dammit! u keep spittin shit abt me to the world even thou u don even noe the shit i'm gng thru. u tink the pathetic amount pops giv me is enuff? u tink i'm sucking him dry? wtf i don even hav enuff to eat!keep comparing me wit ur goody-two-shoes daughters. i noe, i noe, u tink i'm just some rotting weenut in the family. u tink tat every word u say is rite. well, suit yourself. i don giv a fuck.i pity ur condition rite now and i don wana u to all possessy-wanky like wat hapened tat time when i reli spit my shit out. well, tat felt kinda beta, at least for awhile. only good frens, siblings and the special sum1 has been my pillar of strength for quite sum time now.... just woke up. the computer has been "strangely" slow since i started usin it yesterday. had a sleepover at azar's house with the night before. but in the end we didn slp. agn. played games, then watch the chelsea vs liverpool match at sum coffeeshop quite far away from his house. since we were broke, we shared money and its only enuff for 3 cups of teh for 4 persons. hahaha. later after the match, we played tis stupid game whereby me and azar hav to come up wit lyrics while zali was playing my guitar.
"for those who continue to comare to this false idea, what do you expect from me, sing a lullaby scream you to sleep? i'm fucking sick of it being your way."
xMunicipally Wastedx
Sunday, April 17
6:44 PM
just had pop's weird cooking just now. when he has a chance to cook, he oways try to make it "stand out". well some was a success, while some...well lets just not go there. heh. chilled wit the crew yesterday.we sat in a circle played and stupid games like chop chilli chop and 007. kinda childish but fun. haha. spent the nite at azar's house and we played football manager. talked sum stuff also. our situation's kinda similar in some way.... today's kinda special...but i can do shit. i'm sorry syg...
brutelattes~
"Somewhere between the stinging sheets of city rain and the thunderclap, we see who we are"
xMunicipally Wastedx
Wednesday, April 13
2:19 AM
had mc paper just now. woke up in da morn and as usual no food ad that house in the east. made a pitstop to mommo's house to go grap a bite. had sum leftover spaghetti cooked by my sis. heh, mommo told me abt her early years wit pops. said that pops only gave me late grandpa 500 bucks(duit hantaran) for mommo's hand in marriage. than me grandpa had to write a blank cheque for the solemnisation ceremony($2000) so that he won lose face."u see how pathetic your father is," she said in malay."fancy givin ur grandpa only 500 dollars,"she continued. i just laughed it off.haha! i could tell that mommo still misses pops. dam if this shit would'n have hapened... met them mates(denny boy, baby milo, sammo, anthon and roteiro) at fj then revise wit them. saw this boy tat looked exactly like clement then he came into the topic of the conversation. well this boy has a few differences from clement. first he's got a parting, then he wears real branded stuff and he tries to fit into the "in" crowd. also toked abt wat our cock would look like if leeches sucked on them(anthon say it'll look like dried chili) and JINCO JEANS. met zai later in thee nite wit abu, azar and afiq. b4 that abu told me and azar abt his ex gal's situation. she called abu a few days ago and told him that she suspects her new bf to b gay. heh. also toked abt wats gng to hapen to our individual lives in the future when we've become fully adults. Afiq, afiq...he used to be so decent a long time ago(never drink and smoke)but now he's heavy in both drinking and smoking. AND TAT FAG TOLD US THAT HE DID NOT WEAR ANI UNDERWEAR JUST NOW. to smokers: if u guys wana quit, i reccomend u guyz to buys a packet of sunflower seeds. cos is works. continuin my java revision now.
the bangbusta crew!(courtesy of raihan a.k.a suzarie a.k.a vladdy a.k.a model)
"The smell of turpentine drips from the walls"
xMunicipally Wastedx
Monday, April 11
11:23 PM
been at sch since the early morn. alone. bfore tat had a chicken feast at momma's house. sick of fish and meat at tat house in the east. then headed to nyp. i intended to print out them past year exam paper's but discovered i had no cashcard, no, WALLET. did da old painstakin task of copyin the questions one by one on sum sketch pad i bout for 75 cents. went home at 7. tmw's d day. well wat hapens afta the exams? situation is tooooo similar.... keep readin tat blog entry over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over again......
"Beneath the flutter of desperate wings they sing a song of reclamation"
xMunicipally Wastedx
Sunday, April 10
10:35 PM
nuth much hapen today. spent the whole mornin searchin for saosin's seven years then met ah keng in the late noon. needed his help in my maths. well guess wat..I STILL NOE SHIT BOY! ur teaching sucks! i hope u crash da instructor's car tmw asshole! or mayb get raped by him! eww..kkk. plan to go to sch 1st thing in the morn to revise. reli cnt stay at home ar..abu got his pastamania job which left me and boy syndrome still jobless.
"When you fall short and I fall short this is where I pretend I'm as tall as the sky"
xMunicipally Wastedx
if only i could relive those carefree days at the convalescent home again...
so wat if i spent most of my childhood years at a children's home? lookin back, those were sum of the best years of my life...
went in there in 93. 1st person i saw was this boy by the name of iskandar. he's kinda weird. has a screw loose on his head. there's this time where he bit my bro's nose until it was bloody..thats a unique memento to keep..a scar. heheh. and there's sum other weirdos too like this boy who like to chui this particular staff's ass and this gal hu likes to bang her head on the wall(she's always tied up as a result). sounds like sum asylum for tots..but not all are weirdos..made sum good friends at there..catch grasshoppers(size of a middle finger), played soccer, bury dead snakes on the playgrounds(snakes were aplenty there) and wrecked the playroom.
relished those visits to gr8 places like the zoo or science centre and during the the christmas season there were tons of visits to posh restaurants and hotels and we'ld get plenty of prezzies..
well, problems are my prezzies nowadays and friends help to ease that fucked up feeling. but at the end of the day when i'm all alone.....
"These limbs search feverishly for the gift of gravity"
xMunicipally Wastedx
Saturday, April 9
12:31 AM
been wit the boys for the whole afternoon. AZHAR LOST HIS WALLET!! how does it feel huh? good?! orgasmistic? welcome to the club nigga! nyehhehheh..well at least u've got oda..she's oways behind ur back..don wori la boy..i just wana tell u sumth u told me when i lost mY wallet..."SHIT HAPPENS". met abu later. intention was revision but we ended up trying for a job at pastamania. dig the casual lookin uniform(polo tee and bermudas) and they let us wear ani typa shoe. well, i hope i reli get this job..... went to oda house with them cos they wana record sum music for her short film.big mouth lenny and under-the-weather herf arrived later. after dinner at oda's, the recording starts. its hapened inside her room. a few strummings from raihan(he played this mellow lullabyish music) and evribody(excluding me) was in lala land. well, for a short period only. on the way back, lenny and i were groovin to inul daratista's "dikocok-kocok" on her md. wtf, i actually knew da lyrics to tat stupid song.
"To those adorned with the touch of rose petals And the blessed gift of forgetfulness"
xMunicipally Wastedx
Friday, April 8
9:20 AM
i'm usually nt awake at this point of time..but well becos of sum1..i am. ytd rot at home for da WHOLE day since that fucking incident cos i'm cashless. revise sum maths...found my love below/speakerboxx cd. heck, it brings back memories..lov this 1 track where this chick would say "where are my panties?".haha! keeps me awake thru my revision time. continue revisin until at abt 9 then go meet ah keng. he told me his adventures during his driving practicals. to ah keng: go and get a donkey, and ride thru the sunset, if it eva moves.heheh. saw this month issue of lime and the cover page..PUNK REVIVAL. punk u say? PUNK?! u guys noe shit abt punk! i'm cool wit green day, but simple plan, avril lavinge and GOOD CHARLOTTE?! more like pop shit to me! then wat's tsunami bomb, 7 seconds or lagwagon for? please, stop labelling sum mainstream pop shitheads punk princess or punk bands. it's becos they incorporate pop into their songs thats y they get the recognision. well, saying all this is no use. it'll just keep on happening like sum irritating fly u wana swat.
"Gun in my mouth, I pray for the sunshine Gun in my mouth, I pray for the sunshine"
xMunicipally Wastedx
Wednesday, April 6
8:03 PM
LOST MY WALLET. AGAIN. yea i'm blessed with such fucking luck. ezlink(45 cents per trip), student card, me sis atm card(she's gona kill me for sure) and sum important shit like my cpu receipt. followed azar cut his hair at roxy just now. afta that, was feelin me pants for me wallet. only felt my scrawny lil thighs. thats when the bomb exploded. YEA FUCK, the wallet was magically invisible. arrgh! fucking head! i'm more senile than the senilest old hag. 1st i'm jobless and now this?! i noe there's other more shitty things to come. b4 that, was at school ALONE to revise stuff. fad arrived later(she said she had nuth to do afta her editin) and kept me company. took some of that boredom abit. another BIG burden weighing me down. heh, "pathetic" has been branded on my head since my 1st cry.
"I don't blame you for walking away I'd do the same if I saw me I swear it's not contagious In four short steps we can erase this:
step 1 - slit my throat step 2 - play in my blood step 3 - cover me in dirty sheets and run laughing out of the house step 4 - stop off at the edge of the creek and rinse your crimson hands
You took me hostage and made your demands I couldn't meet them so you cut off my fingers, one by one"
xMunicipally Wastedx
i intend to go to skool to revise for the upcoming exams just now, but woke up late. azhar koled at abt 3. says he didn't smoke for 2 days str8 and he will be straight edge or sXe(a term for dudes who don smoke,drink and fuck) like me. my 1st reaction was, wat a good liar he was. yeah u keep braggin about ur achievements i'll c how strong u r later in clouds of smoke. meet him later then go browse tees at penin(say he saw 1 youth of today tee). darlsh called and we chatted 4 awhile. even though it was brief, hearin her voice means alot to me. haiz. yea i'm mad. oda soon arrived. she says that a disabled cat of fad's goes by da name of mimi. wtf. i'm reli tat siao ar. heheh. later met the GOLDEN COUPLE(nyenyenyipoopui! haha!) and lan at bugis junction's mac. kill time until 8. jammed till 9(abu's got tis dope lookin vans shoe), then chilled till 11.i told raihan to psyco tat sXe wanabe to puff a stick. surprisingly, he obliged. mayb becos oda was around. heh. on the way back, i saw this mat adorned with all the branded shit(zen micro, nike sneakers, etc) and wearin a carrefour uniform. i thought,"damn bastard, u're oready filthy rich and u still wana work? well if the main fuckin reason is boredom, well use ur fucking money go do sumthin worthwhile like fucking some whore or sumth. give others a chance!!" some bastards hav all the luck in the world.
"It's just not that simple when the perfect words just don't ever seem to fit"
xMunicipally Wastedx
Monday, April 4
11:17 PM
after 3 hours of slp, my lala land was abruptly destroyed by me pops. comm skill paper at 9.i drag me ass into toilet, coat me body wit melted iceberg and alkaline. torturous routine evriday. wtf. took out my favourite boxer from da closet only to find out it's tattered and holely. let out this loud eruptive scream. lava started to rush down my volcano. pops explain my there's sumthin wrong wit da washing machine when me stepmom was washin da clothes at tat time. as usual, she just pretended as if nuthin has hapen. i noe u hate me and all but not to the extent of killing me boxer?! but wtf can i do anw.. tried on that jewel-turned-rag for da last time(damn fucking holes is located strategicly)then put it back to me closet. can't bear to throw it away. it's been with me thru good times and bad. haiz... later, i was on this ghost train. kept lookin at my watch. isn this rush hour? well doesn seem rush to me. drift off in train then when i wake up i was in marsling. detour back to nyp then did sum last minute revision. didn expect da paper was tough. "comm skill's like CME la" azar would say. well fuck ur cme u fag. 5 types of negotiation? wtf is tat? oh, strip, blow, fuck, sodom and cum? sori, don mind da crude words, i'm just plain pissed. afta that headed to momma's house. saw this kk letter bearing my sis name and i was suspicious. started interrogatin her. mann i reli thought she had an abortion. then she explained that she did a mini operation to hav this malignant growth in her ovaries removed. hmm orite, sensible excuse. then went survey for a black marshall(not available) at beach road then go penin survey tee.
"I float above and these wings catch, and your sky hold you so beautiful"
xMunicipally Wastedx
Sunday, April 3
4:24 PM
just woke up. was wit the crew the whole nite. it was Afiq's birthday yesterday. that butch is finally 20. heh no more teens boy. wait for azar(new tee), oda and zaki(new watch) to come than bought a cake for the birthday boy. there was this bak kwa shop beside the cake shop and the alurring aroma of that barbequed slices of babi was seducing me. too bad i'ma muslim(i think i was possessed by some chinese trendywanker during that time). met lenny later(she's got a new hairdo, looks more "zullish" haha) followed by the birthday boy(new cap). we chiled at a dark orchard park(like maids and their b boys on sundies) then the golden couple came. i can swear they were holding hands in at a distance when they were approaching us even though it was dark. the others thought of it too. but as usual, it was the "no, not, never" reply from them. orite..wateva. haha. herfah's got a nu hairdo too(i tink yesterday was also new stuff day). abu and his gal completed the attendance then it was time for the typical song and the blow-out-the-cake-make-a-wish routine. later, we chiled at somerset. someone suggest that we borrowed a car(raihan already has a lisence)and have a road trip around singapore and everyone was into the idea. raihan called his mum to try psycho her to psyco his uncle lend raihan the car. nope. no car. called siddiq(his dad's got a car) and he say that the car was involved in a accident. wtf. last2 we ended up trekking from somerset to padang then talked shit till dawn. though it was a shitty end, i stilled had fun.
HEY!!!!
he's like sizzzlin hot!! psss...
wonder what's he's wishing for b4 cutting da cake....
those hands..soo smooth..
being fed by 1 of his gay frens..aww soo shweet!
tempek boyz
cumshot*~
"Buried but breathing with this evening's sleep Buried but breathing, these devils weep"
xMunicipally Wastedx
Friday, April 1
9:37 PM
got two tests today. woke up early then went to momma's house grap a bite. sis has a nu hairdo. not bad...looks kinda "in". say she has been boycotted agn by these gals in her class for no reason. heh. gals. then i told her, "bulu pepek dah serabai, prangai cam kanak2 riang".heh. reached nyp at abt 12 then revised dmd. had complementary maths paper at abt two then dmd paper at 4.30. send darlsh home then head back to my crib.
"There was nothing that I ever wanted more than for you to hold this deep within your heart To lay beside me as my halo bums deep to cinder"
xMunicipally Wastedx
today was dmd project presentation day and com skill common test. i woke up extra early today with the intention to revise at skool first. but just 1 more stop to yck station, i forgot my dickdrive. no choice but to detour all da way back to eunos to take that damned thing. about two hours had gone to waste. did final touch ups to my project then go present it to lecturer. not turning back. he said my project's passable but high marks? i don tink so. azar kol me later sayin he on da way to nyp to report on his missing student pass. ask me to wait for him at the atrium. and waited i did. i patiently crouch down and hid behind the walls of the escalator waiting for my victim. then there he was, with da sissyish polos and tat berdano levis. ape lagi..BoOoOoO!! he looked like he was sodomised by an electric rod or sumthin. haha. accompanied him go to blk e, then da ol bitch said tat he has to go to the admin office. during the journey, i kol sum of me classmates. no answer. i smelled sumthin is not right. "don tell me the paper starts at two?". looked at my watch. 2.45. i was gone with the wind. opened the lecture theater door, it was filled. evribody was in their seats doin the paper. yeah fuck, i mistimed when's da paper gon start. tot it was 3. a big and wet kiss goes out to the male invigilators hu took da trouble to bring me to my tutors room and a big kiss and tounge to sharon(my tutor) 4 givin me a chance to take da paper on mon. after send darlsh home, met polo boy then met the golden couple, raihan and herfah(it's ironic y herfah is always' there when raihan's around..*winks*)at McCafe. played win lose or draw and wheel of fortune azar style then accompanied him go buy poker cards at far east. on the way back, saw tis "dude" lookin watch, took out me ten bucks and bought it. just like tat. wtf. afiq and lan came then it was g.a.m.b.l.e(fuckin bastards say play use cents only) all da way. azar the fag got himself 10 bucks while i hav to pay lan, the banker(we played blackjack) 5.70. this is the sort of luck that goes to pathetic assholes like me.
polka dot socks...soo seexyy...ohhh..
the golden couple with boy KL a.k.a mat malaysio.
a. zarjack and mimi black.
the new watch(that later broke)
the lucky fag with lady luck(look at how big his nose hole is)
lucky fag showing me his cards.
"Here, there are the shallow graves, the shallower romances and the shallowest of words still to be spoken"
xMunicipally Wastedx
Him
A Person.
A typical nobody.
Seeks solace in music.
Current Music
Farewell To the Bright Side by Dont Look Back(Fra)
